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Name: Andrew
Country: United States
State: Virginia
Birthday: 9/23/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: music. yeah...lots of music.
Expertise: music. videography. film. sound recording. wearing kilts.
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Media
Message: message meEmail: email me
Member Since:
9/7/2005
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| It's amazing how much one can learn when you really take the time to listen.
My time away has been most beneficial. This past week I read the New Testament, in the New King James Version. I got to know so much more about Christ's ministry here on earth when I read the Gospels again, I became much more familiar with His character and how to emulate it. Furthermore reading Acts thereafter was amazing to see what the Holy Spirit can do if one has faith and is doing what he/she was called to do.
My favorite of the New Testament for me personally are the Epistles. They emphasize so incredibly well and they expound more than proficiently what I feel God moving in me to do and to become.
"There is no fear in love, because perfect love casts out fear. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law."
My co-worker, long time friend and reason for me having a job is quitting. There was some brew-ha-ha as I was leaving Monday, and I guess it was big enough to make him submit his 2 week notice. Work is really going to suck without him...he was the last one I could count on to help me get through the day. Because the only other person that could that was Joel.
"For I consider that these present sufferings are not worth comparing to the glory that will be revealed in us through Christ our Lord."
I read my Bible an hour and a half a day. The first half hour during lunch at work, and then an hour at night as my quiet time before I went to sleep. Saturday I was only able to spend 45 minutes in the Word, but more than made up for it Sunday by taking the entire day read and meditate in the New Testament.
"Oh how I love to read the law! I meditate on it day and night."
There are still many things that I do not understand however. I have lost two more friends, not by death or by some other source of omnipotence, but rather to stupidity and self-centeredness. They quite literally ignored me and ran off with their significant other than ask how I was doing. Am I asking too much of people I call friends to have them ask how I'm really doing? I don't even hope for long conversations and helpful talks, I just want people to be honest with me.
"Love hath no greater meaning than this; that a man may lay down his life for his brother."
For a specific friendship I realized this past week I was making too many expectations, that I was seeking more in what I hoped existed. I can't push meaning, I can't create support. But can I lead by example? Can I give what I want to receive?
"Verily I say unto you, if you want to save this life you must lose it."
God please show me how to deny myself, to have me seek your will, your timing, to guide me to my cross that I might take it up. Show me the light in this life.
"You alone are my hearts desire...and a light unto my path."
-Andrew | | |
| All,
In response to a conversation with my parents and much thought and prayer, I have come to a conclusion.
I have placed too much expectation on people, specifically those closest to me. I have hoped and prayed for things I should not have hoped to happen, and although they weren't "wrong", they were just unrealistic.
Thusly, I am going to leave. Leave everything. MySpace, Xanga, AIM, Email and even my cell phone. Yes, my cell phone I keep on and with me at all times I am not going to answer. I'm even not going to seek after fellowship with those I know in person.
I will do this for one week, starting tonight, Monday October 16th. I'll be back (hypothetically speaking) next Monday.
Every night and every possible moment during the day will be spent seeking Gods will in all of this. Dear friends know that I am hurting very deeply, deeper than you can understand. I hurt more than just the grief of the death of my brother, more than the rejection of some of my former friends. There are pains and trials I face that none of you know of.
Do not take this personally. I'm not angry or upset at anyone...I simply need to step back and be alone with God for a time. However, MUCH is dependent on your response when I'm back.
Once I get offline tonight I am disconnected the internet cable from this computer, I will no longer keep my cell phone by my side, and I will not hang around for fellowship.
Please pray for me, you all know how much I need and desire the fellowship of my brothers and sisters in Christ, that is why I do not do this lightly.
In a weeks time,
-Andrew | | |
| I've had quite a sad and uneventful day (aside from going back to work), but instead of complaining about it I'll leave you with this thought.
It's really hard to talk to a nice girl from church after watching hours of Jay and Silent Bob sketches.
Speaking of which, anyone seen Clerks II yet?
-Slainté | | |
| Here's a quiz for you. I don't think I've ever asked (or told) this to anyone, so it'll be interesting to see what you think. Plus I felt like it was time to post something postive, should I post at all.
What first inspired me to have such an outworking of love towards people?
a) a moment of worship (TeenPact, MasterWorks, etc.)
b) 'Say the Words' techno remix by DC Talk
c) reading Romans one evening
d) the movie Ben-Hur
Certainly I'm still learning and growing since then, but that one particular event made a world of sense to me. Why shouldn't we love one another as Christ loves us?
Now I have to take the initiative. Expressing the love that I have to those who need to hear it. Regardless of the pain that may or may not follow, as Kyla said, God will always be there should I fall. Better is outspoken love than hidden anger, no?
-Slainté | | |
| I might be shutting this xanga down. For reasons that vary.
If you are interesting in keeping contact, write me an email or call me. You should have my number.
-Slainté | | |
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